Wishing...

"Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? I could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now..." ♥

Normally, you want to make a wish to get something you want, to make something come true. Normally, wishes don't come true. Normally, you wish for your wish to come true, any wish. Normally, you have to work to get it. Normally, your wishes are way out of your league to make come true on your own. Normally... Your wish leaves you full of disappointment.

Wishing doesn't really solve anything, or create anything. I've wished to get in a car crash for a couple years. Never once happened. I've wished for him to come back to me, it hasn't happened, but he has talked to me. (: Either way, in the end, the wish isn't coming true.

I've seen one shooting star in my whole life. I made a wish, for the guy I was with to kiss me. You know... He would have if I didn't have a boyfriend. So, sometimes, if things were one way rather than the other, your wishes may just come true. I can't entirely promise, so please, don't take my word on it.

However, some wishes will come true. Take my aunt for example... She found out she had a brain tumor last April. Luckily, her wish that everything would go well, came true. That's the plus side. On the down side, there was dead brain cell build up, and cancer cells, and other things. Doctors removed it alllll. (: Another wish that came true.

So, in the end, some wishes do come true. Some do not. If you work hard enough, yes, maybe they will. Not all will though. Just take it slow, get your hopes up, or don't. Keep hoping. Do whatever it takes to make it come true. Just, be careful for what you wish for. (;

my creative side (:

- Alexandra Jade (:
- sixteen
- dancer
-have a thing for abs (:
- yellow, white, and purple
- I have my own style
- poet and creative writer (:
- future fashion designer
- photographer and very photogenic (:
- rather random and crazy
- can be a total flirt
- love to mess around
- live
- autumn girl
- April fifth, nineteen-ninety-four
- tries on dresses for fun
- Disney freak
- New York City <33
- adopting twins; boy (Nathaniel James) and girl (Kaelyn Marie)
- still want an older brother
- 2010 New Years Resolution: stay single (:
- know exactly what I want in a relationship
- dead random, home skillet (:
- sleep on left side of bed ...only
- I have this thing about me where guys fall in love with me
- want a boyfriend who I can have stuff animal wars with (:
- happens to drink my cake d:
- want need something... romantic
- stupid raisins, stay out of my cookies ! yuck :x
- hopeless romantic looking for perfect mate
- bites [middle] bottom lip quite frequently
- sensitive and shy, but very confident in the things I do (:
- wants to be my [future] guys' weakness ♥
- my baby is forever my two year old kitten, Tonks
- sometimes, my phone passes away ):
- I once had to have a rolly-polly memorial service; I said, "In honor of... What's his name again? Oh, yes, Joe. I would like to say a few words, eenie, meanie, miney, moe!"
- after the memorial service, we all walked away. hehe
- proud virgin, thank you
- mom freaks out whenever I get anything lower than an A- and anything higher than a B
- 'cause I'm creative and artistic, is that so bad? (:
- TRUE love will find a way ♥
- I never say it, but I honestly do love my mom
- makes wishes on flower petals
- One more day... One more night... Baby, I'll be wishing still for one more day with you <3
- guys tend me make me shy on first dates
- enjoys falling in like, more than falling in love
- ohbytheway, single (:
- not promising marriage
- 'cause he was stealing cinderella ; sweetheart, I love you...
- I'm a secret, shh !
- pshh. I'm not gorgeous.
- get a hat, put random ideas in there. haha
- you|give|me|puppies. puppies|puppies|in|my|heart. sad|sad|puppies|whenever|we're|apart.
- hate it when people don't have faith in me :l
- promise me, you won't break any of your promises and you'll forever love me.
- random thoughts amuse me... oh, the things I'd do (:<
- July 10, 2009 : near death experience :/
- :D sweetheart you are truly beautiful <3
- "when you break my heart... everybody knows" Liar Liar by NeverShoutNever
- afraid to pick flowers... what if it hurts them when their steam breaks?
- don't tell me you love me, prove it
- *bang* lightninggg.
- been used, lied to, sexually harassed...
- used to hate my life, depressed for about two years +
- I am now the most optimistic person ever
- some girls cannot wait to shop for maternity clothes, I on the other hand cannot wait to be proposed to
- dream wedding : end of fall, beginning of winter
- met father for the first time... November 22-29, 2009
- has to get a hair cut every few months, can't stand the same hair style for too long
- and I often draw multiple sized circles all over my left hand and fingers, sometimes they travel up my left arm (:

time heals, time wounds

So, normally people's eyes contain life, happiness, pain, sorrow, and so on. I really looked at my eyes today as I was getting ready for school, I tried to find something left in them. Anddd... I found nothing. There is no life left in my eyes. Nothing at all. I wasn't even crying, or about to cry, but my eyes were glossy. You know, it's a miracle to how anyone has ever survived. My French teacher told me on Wednesday that her first husband would say: "Time doesn't heal all wounds, time wounds all heals." I have had that in my head since she told me that. I believe him, my French teacher's first husband is right about that. Sometimes, yeah, time heals wounds, but not always. Time wounds all heals. When you've lost it all, time gives you all that time to be alone, to constantly think about it. From time to time, being alone helps, but not other times. when you need your space, everyone is just there and they don't leave you alone. (It sucks, it breaks me down when my friends have been crowding me.) But then, your friends start to catch on that you need space (sometimes, they never catch on) and they leave you alone. The worst thing after that is when you need your friends back, and they won't be there because you pushed them away for all that time, they've given up on ever getting you back. ...I just wish things would get better.

thoughts.

every once in awhile, things get too complicated. you don't really see it coming until it hits dead on. if one thing's true, you'll get through it. whether things turn out bad - or good - you will only get stronger, and it'll help with future problems. there will be come things that get worse, instead of easy, but don't worry too much about it. it's only life, and no one gets out alive anyway. <- that is - no, should be the only reason for everyone to be optimistic, because everyone you hate will, eventually, die.